Where's your focus

As I'm back in the UK now and surrounded by biscuits, crisps and chocolate and everything else on offer its becoming more and more difficult to get back into the groove. Layer on to that the fact that I'm out of my usual routine and that I now have to contend with other people that may have an influence on what I eat, it becomes all the more difficult.

With wedding planning there's the various nights out and now family is starting to arrive from all over the world and there's the usual dinner and drinks with them that needs to take place. It becomes more and more difficult to get into the groove.

At times I wonder if even without all the wedding planning stuff whether I'd still be in the same position as part of me wants to eat all the unhealthy stuff. Part of me wants to take it easy. There's another part of me which never leaves me, the part that wants to be fit and healthy, wants to be lean, look good, feel good, and hit my goal.

As I still want to get on it and get after it and with the wedding looming, I want to do all I can to lose the excess quick. I think what can I do to get rid of the fat or excess water weight which I'm carrying, what can I do to get the scale weight down.

My focus is all wrong. Completely wrong. I'm focusing on the weight, the scales and the fat. It's not about that. That is all a symptom. I need to be focused on my mentality. What are the thoughts? What's guiding the decisions? Who do I want to be? Am I aware of the thoughts and the impulses? Am I aware of who I'm choosing to be?

This isn't about the weight. It isn't about the scales. It isn't about the aesthetics. Though that is nice. It's about who I want to be. Its about who I want to become. That is all down to mentality.

My focus is on weight at the moment...not mentality. It needs to shift. So where is your focus now?