What's holding you back?

Now, this is a long journey. This website was created in part for others to help them on their way, but also it was meant as a resource for me. As I'm writing these posts, I often get confused who I'm actually writing for.

I'm no expert on weight loss. I don't have it all figured out by any stretch of the imagination. It's been a long journey, a really long journey and I still haven't quite hit my goal. I've hit one of them.

I started off in the early hundred kilos. I think I weighed myself when I was at about 103Kg. I think at some stages I was heavier than that. I may have even got to about 110Kg. Right now I'm about 72Kg. At one stage getting to about 73Kg was the goal. I thought I'd be ripped or in fairly lean condition. I realised eventually, that I'd have to go further. So now the goal is 68Kg. I've been there and have seen the pictures so I know at that weight I'll be in good condition.

I remember when I first started, I bit the bullet. I asked myself some important questions. If this journey takes 5 years, am I willing to pay that price? If it takes 15, am I willing to pay the price? OIf it takes 20, am I willing to pay the price? I bit the bullet and surrendered. I said if it takes that long, so be it.

Its really taken a long time to get to where I am. Depending on how you measure it, you could say around 15 years. I'm very close to my target range of 67-70Kg, but at times it feels so far. My journey has been slow. I never expected it to be linear or quick but I thought it would have been quicker.

I see and have seen people, lose more weight in a lot less time. I believe some of them have kept it off as well. I often wonder how they did it. Some people even talk about doing a cut so casually. It's like they cut, do what needs to be done, get down to the weight they want to and keep it.

I'm by no means saying they have it easy or haven't worked for it. I'm not saying they have not had hardships either. I'm not portraying myself as a victim here wither.

But I don wonder how people do it. I have seriously struggled with self-sabotage. I'll sometimes lose a few kilos and keep it off. Other times, I'll do the right things, tighten up on my diet lose a few kilos, just to sabotage and put it back on. It's as though my subconscious isn't ready for it.

It's been a constant battle to learn how to get my subconscious ready for it. I still don't have the answer. It's almost like a thermostat. When the temperature drops too low, it will switch the heating on to compensate. If it goes too high, it will cool things down. My journey has been blighted by this problem or phenomenon.

It has been very frustrating. On top of that there's holidays etc, so when you do get a good period to actually lose some weight and make progress, it all depends on whether my subconscious is ready. The actions seem futile otherwise.

When the subconscious says yes then we have action. The question is how to get the subconscious ready? Thats the point of this website. How to get down to the root cause or causes which are holding us back. For me, some of it was mindset adjustments and perspectives. There's clearly more inner work to do.

So what's holding you back? What are the problems you are facing? What are your biggest challenges on this journey?