Riding the waves

Last week was quite a busy week. We had the parents evening on Tuesday so that was an early start and a late finish. Then on Wednesday and Thursday we had some inspections.

Not only did we have the inspections on Wednesday, I had a full day of classes without any real breaks. Naturally, when it got to Thursday I was feeling it.

I could feel the resolve start slipping. When I say resolve, that's not quite it. It's more of a desire to just chill out and relax.

Then on cue the students were having a bake sale. Lots of cakes and biscuits on offer. It all started to go downhill from there.

I just wanted to let go and eat. Thursday night I went for a meal with my wife as we were having a small celebration so we went to a local Vietnamese place that we wanted to try.

Usually I can manage these quite well and control portions. The problem...I just didn't want to. I didn't want to absolutely stuff myself or anything, but I just wanted to let go a little.

So I did.

By Friday I was knackered. I wanted to get home and just have a drink and chill out. So again, thats what I did.

Saturday...Indian food. Sunday...a ton of little snacks here and there.

Looking back, I wonder what has led to this. After all, in Western society we live in oceans of food. There's just so much of it everywhere. We don't have to have it all in one go.

But sometimes you just want to let loose and not worry about the quantities. It happens.

I think its important to remember that its all part of the journey. Sometimes your journey is longer than others. Thats partly because we all struggle with different things.

Its easy to want to give up. Its natural. Its easy to wonder if you'll ever get where you want to go. It's natural. That's exactly what I've been thinking over the last few days.

But...I won't. I wont give up. I'll keep going. Its important to me. I dont know when it'll happen but it will. If I just keep going. The backwards steps are all part of it. They'll happen. We just need to ride them out and hopefully get better at managing them so that when they occur, we don't go over board and they become lighter.

We just need to learn from them.

So what caused this one? Probably some over restriction. These blow outs are usually caused by over restriction.

The solution is to just rain it back a little. Yes the results can be addictive but the backwards steps can really slow progress, so its quicker to just hold back a little and go quicker overall.

We get so addicted to the speed that we end up losing our way and our focus. Steady progress is what we need. Eventually, we'll get there.