Feeling the next level

I just had a call with my coach. We looked into what I was doing. I generally have this pattern of making a little progress then regressing and only when something in the back of my mind says yes, thats when I'll make progress. As a result progress has been slow.

I last wrote about keeping the identity current, and its about that. It's about keeping that current. But it's also a little more than that.

Its not just that. Its about doing what that person does. More importantly, thinking how that person thinks.

The last few weeks have been tough with everything thats been taking place. Family emergencies, having a miscarriage. It's been tough. I've not really wanted to regulate. I've been eating impulsively. It's not felt good. I feel fat, I feel sluggish, I don't feel like the real me.

In the conversation, a lot of things I already know came to light. Things like letting go of the old self. Being 68Kg compared to 73Kg isn't much of a difference in terms of things I do. The fact that i slip out of the person I need to be and slip back into some old patterns. The fact that I out way too much on a particular number. It really is just a number. The person is pretty much the same.

I just need to think about what that person does, how that person handles Christmas, how that person handles holidays, how that person handles the day-to-day, how they handle the week, the month and the year.

It's not just about imagining hitting that goal. It's picturing having been that weight for several months and what that person does to hold that weight easily. How that person feels.

That person is comfortable at the weight. Its imagining that new comfort zone. It's thinking and feeling from the new person.