Enjoying the attention

After a short spell recently where I just haven't been feeling it, I feel like I'm back in the groove, or certainly more in it.

I've been working with a psychologist and we've been looking into this phenomenon of the "internal thermostat" which I've been experiencing, certainly with weight loss. I think sometimes it's not just what was said in the session that is important, it's the deep introspection that is. It's bringing the issue to light and looking at it from different angles. The value from the psychologist is another perspective on things. They can also provide strategies etc which can also be useful, but for me its the perspectives they offer.

The goal for many should be a place of security. Not a place of fear. For me, to a certain degree, it's a place of fear. Something to be scared of. So when I make some progress, rather than being comfortable with it, I can recoil in horror. It's not a conscious thing, it's very subconscious.

So what's the fear? Why be scared of hitting my goal and staying there? It's about attention, it's about success. It's about bringing that attention on my self. It's something I'm Ok with at times but I'm not really into.

I don't like attention seekers. I don't like people who are constantly vying for it, they just come off as unnecessarily loud and irritate me. That doesn't mean however that you can't enjoy attention. There's a difference between someone who enjoys attention when it comes and maybe seeks it occasionally and someone who is always after it. It comes down to a relationship with attention. Having a healthy relationship with it. Even relishing it from time to time.

But then why would losing weight mean attention? Well...people notice. People can see. People see your success. People who have tried to do it themselves and have struggled see. It draws attention. It can be inspiring. People will want to know how it happened, what you did to get there. Unfortunately, as I found out on my journey, the attention isn't always positive. Sometimes it can be quite negative. It can be somewhat bitchy and downright hurtful

In order to inspire and set an example, you have to accept the fact that some people will hate and some people will not get your message. They will see things from where they are. They will see things how they are and how they have always seen it.

The ones that really want it, will see what you did and be open to improving their behaviours so they can also get what they want. So embrace the attention, stick your head above the precipice, be seen, be heard.